Gloomy

It's a gloomy day... and I hate this kinda feelings. Feeling of stuck.... sad... worried and erm... susah nak cakap.  My sister in law was warded 2 days ago. Kesian Kak Yana. Semalam ada teringat nak call her. Tapi rutin saya terlalu sibuk. Disamping menyiapkan tempahan Peppermint Chocolate Macaron sempena father's day. Ada yang perlu dipos. Dah agak lama saya berehat dari Ketuhar ShaAz... and I miss my baking session.

But don't know why I felt so down today. Reason? Erm... I'm too tired I guess. Hectic with office work yang tak kenal erti rehat... rutin harian dan trafik yang menyesakkan... Sekejap kang kene keluar office meredah trafik untuk ke authority.. kembali ke office dan berperang dengan drawing... menyelesaikan puzzle-puzzle design dengan menafsir masalah akan datang... segalanya terlalu memenatkan.

My mood currently..... ZERO. Tapi perut terasa sangat lapar. Since yesterday I skipped my breakfast, I did't took my lunch... and I skipped my dinner. Hanya cendawan goreng yang mengisi perut. I lost my appetite already. I miss my mum's cook... The best ever. Today... I will definitely take my lunch... because I tapau a food from home... I did cooked last night... cuma tak makan. Lost appetite.

Anyway, I'm kinda know this feeling. I felt it about 2 years ago... but why? I have no answer at all. Ya Rabb, hilangkanlah kegusaran dihatiku ini...

XOXO,

Mifdal Darwish.... Ahli Syurga

Rabu, 23 Mei 2012

Pagi itu saya cuba hubungi emak.. rsa rindu sangat. Padahal baru pulang ke Johor weekend yang lalu. Tapi, mak agak sibuk.. panggilan tak berjawab. Saya kerja seperti biasa dan pulang ke rumah pada jam 6 petang. Singgah sebentar di Mydin berdekatan rumah mencari beberapa barang untuk buat gubahan bunga. (ini hobi baru saya).. Sampai di rumah kia-kira jam 7.15 malam dan saya bersiap-siap nak sediakan makanan untuk dinner. Beberapa minit kemudian, Mak telefon. Rasa happy sangat nak jawab panggilan.

Me : Assalamualaikum mak... (sambil saya senyum walaupun mak tak nampak.
Mak : Waalaikumsalam... (Mak jawab dengan suara bergetar. Pelik. Seperti ada sesuatu)
Me : Mak.. kenapa ni? Ada apa apa ke?
Mak : Mak nak bagitau ni... Pasal Kak Yana.... Along telefon tadi bagi tahu... baby dah tak ada...
Me : Innalillah.... (tanpa saya sedar air mata saya mengalir)
Mak : Nanti cuba call Angah... Mak call dia... tapi tak dapat.

Saya terkedu seketika. Baru Ahad lepas saya usap perut kakak ipar saya.. pesan pada baby... "baby.. baby kene sihat tau... nanti boleh datang acu kahwin kat KL"

Puas saya hubungi Along dan Angah... sekitar jam 8.30pm barulah saya dapat bercakap dengan Along...

Me : Assalamualaikum Along..
Along : Waalaikumsalam... Usu... Anak aku... Anak aku dah tak ada... Anak aku Baby Boy...
Me : Innalillah... macam mana boleh jadi macam ni?
Along : Tak tahu lah.. tadi pagi baby sihat je.. gerak-gerak. Tiba-tiba petang Yana bgtau baby dah tak ada.

The whole family have been waiting for baby boy... semua anak-anak saudara saya... 5 orang girl. Terus saya usulkan pada suami.. untuk pulang ke Johor. Jam 11.30 malam, kami bergerak pulang dan tiba di  Johor jam 4.00 pagi. Alhamdulillah.. selamat sampai.

Khamis, 24 Mei 2012

Pagi itu, selesai subuh, saya hanya duduk dan bercerita dengan Mak. Masing-masing tak dapat the full story. Along sendiri tak tahu apa punca. 7.30 pagi, Along and Abg Azri bergegas ke hospital untuk menuntut jenazah pulang. Sementara itu, kami di rumah berkemas-kemas bagi memberi ruang untuk solat jenazah. Lebih kurang jam 10.00 pagi.. Along dan Abg Azri pulang bersama baby.. Mifdal Darwish bin Mohd Yusri.

Jenazah di letakkan di tilam yang disediakan.. dibuka kain kafan.. Saya kucup dahi Mifdal... air mata rasa tak tertanggung sekali. Saya panggil mia... "Mia.. cium adik, sayang"... Mia nangis teresak-esak. Mia dah besar. Dia faham.. adik dia dah meninggal. Mifdal Darwish dijemput Allah sebelum sempat dia melihat dunia. Kira-kira lam 11.30 pagi... Mifdal Darwish selamat dikebumikan di Tanah Pekuburan Ar-Raudha, Johor Bahru.

Mifdal Darwish... walaupun kamu tak sempat melihat dunia... tak sempat kami membelaimu... kami akan tetap ingat padamu... kerana kamu adalah Mifdal Darwish bin Mohd Yusri... insan terpilih menjadi penghuni syurga.

XOXO,

Wedding 29.04.2012

Alhamdulillah.. wedding photo dah siap and on thier way to meet me. I don't wanna say too much to day. Enjoy the pictures of my wedding. Even it is not all of it... here some beautiful memories I had on my wedding day that I would like to share. 

My bestest friend Anis a.k.a Pucok Kelompang

My BFF Iza & Yati

Waiting for rombongan pihak lelaki

After the akad... our second akad *wink

Moment after akad

Menunggu masa bersanding

Berjalan masuk sambil diiringi flower girls yang cute

Bersanding

Sesi bergambar. During my wedding.. tiada upacara merenjis.. we skip that one

Makan beradab... Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Potong kek

Moment during reception

I found you

---^_^---

Together

I like this one!!

And this one!

Looking at the future

Look... over there...

1...2...3... jump

*smile*

I bang you

Oh.. penatnya...

The Look

Close-up... bulu mata ala-ala Rozita Che Wan


That's all the photo. I'm now preparing my self for reception pihak lelaki.
I'm getting fat now. Urgh...




XOXO,

Hari hari kerja

After the reception at my house last month, I was totally busy with office work. Since I took my long leave last March... busy with my wedding preparation.. and now I'm super busy with office work. Deadlines that killing me. And now, while writing this... I'm still in the office. Berehat seketika sebab kepala dah tepu. I try my best to finish up as much as I can.

Many people asked my... "How's life after marriage?"... It's a favourite question now. Previously was... "Bila nak kahwin?"... in a few month people might asking... "Dah ada isi belum?" or... "Berapa bulan?"... soalan berangkai... agak-agak bila dah tua ada tak orang tanya... "When are you going to die?".. ermmmm...

Life was great. Alhamdulillah. Allah tak pernah lupa akan saya. Kadang-kadang saya yang terlupa pada-Nya. Sedih bila sedar saya lupa. Kenapa saya lupa sedang Allah memakbulkan semua permintaan saya. Menjemput saya menjadi tetamu-Nya, menemukan saya dengan jodoh saya, memberi saya keluarga yang cukup baik dan sempurna untuk saya, memberi pekerjaan yang baik pada saya, mempermudahkan segala urusan dan perjalanan saya. Walau di uji, pasti Allah mudahkan. Alhamdulillah.. alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah. Syukur keatas segala nikmatnya.

I have to go back late tonight because I have a big task to finish. Wish me luck. =)

Sneak Peek Wedding Photo

Salam everyone. I wanna share something with all of you. A sneak peek of my wedding photo. Just 2 for now... I myself, waiting for the full version and my storybook as well. Hehehe...

 Just Married

I'm in love and finally found my the other half. 

Alhamdulillah.

XOXO,

It's Saturday

Hai semua. Apa kabar? Dah almost seminggu I didn't update anything. Well, I'm quite busy with my new life as a wife. I enjoy being a wife. Alhamdulillah. By the way, we adopted another kitty. Kikimot Mordella. That's her name. She's white kitty with a beautiful blue eyes. No pictures yet.. She needs time to groom until betul-betul cantik. Only then I will post some pictures.

Anyway, I supposed to sit for exam today but I don't feel like going. So I just sit at home, write this entry sambil kemas-kemas rumah. Hehehe... Currently my hubby and me tengah bertungkus lumus buat wall painting. Nak pasang wallpaper it's a bit wasting because we are renting right now. So, wall painting works and tak memerlukan modal yang besar.

1 feature wall completed at living. I have another 2 feature walls to decorate. 1 in the dining and another one in the bedroom. InsyaAllah will try to finish it by this weekend.

Okay, nothing much to say. I need to continue doing the housework. Till then.

XOXO,

Precious Moment : My Wedding

Salam everyone. Alhamdulillah my walimat telah selamat berlangsung last Sunday, 29 April 2012 which is my birthday as well. My official wedding theme is gold. However the setting for my room, pelamin and dress is white. While for the guest is pastel. The overall picture of the wedding must look simple, neat, presentable and well planned even though everything is planned in a month only.

Sebulan yang lalu, I can't sleep well thinking about the wedding. I called my sister everyday to update and share ideas for my wedding. Anyway, she's my wedding planner. She did complain... penat jadi wedding planner ni. But, saya merayu dia since I'm far from home and pada siapalah saya nak harapkan. Lagi pula, my sister sangat memahami saya. I do not need to complete the whole sentences... she already knew what I wanna say.

Alhamdulillah, everything went well. So, let's cut the story short... Let's have a look on some pictures taken during the walimat. But before that, I must tell something... On Saturday, small akad ceremony was held at my house. Shocking is it? Yes, saya bernikah di Makkah Mac lalu. But the procedure pendaftaran was a bit bla bla bla... so we decide to akad again. As per advised by Imam and Ustaz, kami akad sekali lagi disaksikan kaum keluarga terdekat dan sahabat handai.  

So, here is the deco of my room. Simple is it? I'm kinda minimalist person. I prefer something neat, simple but yet elegant. 

Bilik tidur yang di dekorasi ringkas dan moden.

During the akad day with my BFF Izatul & Cik Yam.

This is my twin... my darling BFF Anis

My lovely sister which is also my wedding planner. Thank you Angah. I love you.

After the akad. Alhamdulillah.

Our wedding ring. Simple. Minimalist. Just like me.

A night before the reception day, I went to Dewan Jubli to organize my guest book table. At first, I appointed my best friend to arrange for me. But that night while transferring all the things in the hall, I felt like decorating the guest book table by my self. 

I'm decorating....

And this is what I imagine during the design stage. Tadaaaa....

The guest book table

I used 3 jars, pastel colour art card, 1 big vase with lily and lavender, multi picture 

frame, wild orchid, fern, bird nest and white stone. I just love it. Alhamdulillah.

This wedding dress, I design it my self with my uncle's advice. Modern urban wedding dress with turban.

My cute little flower girls. They are so cute and lovely. Comel sangat.

King & Queen of the day.

With my BFF as tetamu.

After a while in the hall, meeting all the guest, bersalaman bersama saudara dan sahabat handai, I went out for outdoor photography session. Jeng jeng jeng...

All the photo was taken from my camera... taken by Cik Yam and some by Anis. Thanks a lot girls. Thank you for the help and thank you for attending my wedding. That's all my wedding photo for now. InsyaAllah once I received from my photographer I will upload more. Till my next post.

XOXO,