Good Bye 2010

Finally....

Today is the end of 2010...

I had suffer a lot this whole year...

Life been crazy, messy, dummy....

January.... the beginning was not that good

February.... still not that good, trapped in a stupid 'way of life'

March.... trying to forgive and giving a chance, shocked by unexpected chapter of life

April... my birthday month, i'm 25!

May.... leave all the memories behind, beginning a new chapter of life

June.... the memory remain as a memory which i already buried in a 'black box'

July.... errmmm life was ok, seems ok, maybe

August... i smile at myself in a mirror, my decision was soooo damn right

September.... life was so-so... ups n downs

November... things doesn't turned as what i'd expected, again... my heart is bleeding for a while

December.... i have nothing more to hope, just go with the flow

As the conclusion, 2010.... please go away. Take the cumulonimbus with you. And please... don't come back.

~The End~

Shopping in Singapore

I should post this entry earlier.... But, I've been really busy this past few weeks....

Keretaku Di Pecah Orang

It's Friday. It's Christmas Eve... Ramai yang cuti and those yang keje... sure balik awal di hari Jumaat itu. But me... still in the office, meeting with my boss and client. Around 6.30 pm... aku masih di office... Baru selesai meeting. Borak-borak ngn kak yus pasal BeBo... si comel yang nakal.Tengah rancak berborak... boss aku datang... tanye apsal ktorg tak balik lagi... aku pon jawab.. " Nak balik dah ni... borak-borak kejap". Boss tanye lagi...

"Shida, u bawak kereta kan?"

"Yupp. Nape Mr. Ravi?"

"Where do u live?" (jawapan bentuk soklan dan x menjawab soklan aku)

"Do u mind if u give me a ride sampai nearest LRT Station?"

"Boleh...." (sambil senyum)

Aku pon kunci la pintu office... Sambil tu aku cakap kat boss... "Nanti u wait for me kat lobby... i pergi amik my car kat atas (parking bertingkat)". Aku pon dengan hati berdebar gi la berjalan ke lift lobby parking sbb nk gi tingkat 3 parking bertingkat... Hati berdebar pasal big boss dgn associate nak naik kete viva aku... pergh... kete wa kecik jek weyh...

Sesampai saje aku kat kereta.. level tu lenggang giler dah takde kete... tinggal kete aku jek seketul kat situ... comel jek....(time ni x pasan lagi) aku unlock kereta mcm biasa... Bukak pintu... tibe- tibe... OMG!!!!!... Cermin tingkap dh kene pecah... dashboard dh terbukak.... mcm ni.....

Giler panik.. ape nak buat ni... Aku pon terus call boss... since he's waiting for me kat lobby...

"Mr. Ravi... my car kene pecah.... " suara aku mmg mcm nak nangis dah time tu...

Boss aku pon tanye... "What? kene pecah? Where do u park ur car?"

"Level 3A"

"U wait there... i datang now"

Sementara nak tunggu boss dan assoc. aku sampai... aku amik gambar ape yang patut...

Aku memang panik tahap gaban.. air mata dah nak jatuh dah... pakkal jek... boss dgn assoc nak smpi kat kereta... kalau tak... mau banjir carpark tu.... Sib baik boss dan assoc. aku ada... kalau tak lagi super duper panic tak tau nk buat ape.... Dah nasib... ape boleh buat...

Tapi alhamdulillah... orang tu cume amik phone car charger dan coins... Nasib baik aku x de dalam kereta masa dia pecahkan tu... Ofismate aku cakap... masa pukul 6.10 dia balik... dia tgk kereta aku sihat jek.. x de pape pon... That's mean kejadian tu berlaku selepas 6.10 - 7.00 pm... Huh....

After that... my assoc drove my car to LRT station near my house... n drove my self to my house. Setibenye di rumah, aku jadi panik semula.. Nak buat ape ni? Takkan nak tinggal kereta macam ni dgn cermin pecah? So aku call Mak.. tak jawab. Call angah... tak jawab. Call abg azri... tak jawab. Call Along... tak jawab. Call kak yana... pon tak jawab. Tibe-tibe hati aku jadi mcm tisu... terus nangis sebab diorang tak angkat my call... Takdenye aku sengaja nk call time maghrib unless its urgent. Tibe-tibe kak yus call.. dia minta aku tunggu kat kereta sbb dia nk datang rumah. So bila kak yus sampai, dia pon bawak aku pegi buat report polis.

Alhamdulillah. Thanks kak yus for your help. Appreciate sangat sangat. Love U. Dan hari ini hari krismas. Aku gagahkan diri sambil ditemani ayah kak yana carik kedai nak repair cermin. I tot its gonna cost me RM250 - RM300... luciky its just cost me RM130. Huh.. relief... Kereta dh sihat... =)

*****

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku... Aku bersyukur kepadaMu dengan segala ujian yang kau berikan kepadaku... Aku bermohon kepadamu... atas ape yang telah terjadi... kau bawalah awan mendung pergi dari hidupku..." Amin

Kitten sudah bernama ^_^

Setelah 4 hari aku adopt anak kucing kaler kelabu ni... akhirnya... dapat sudah nama yang sesuai untuk dia....

Nama Penuh : BENJAMIN BORHAN

Tarikh Lahir : tidak diketahui

Jantina : Jantan

Keturunan : Domestic short hair (70%) + Persian (30%)

Umur : 1 1/2 bulan

Nama panggilan : BeBo

Nama tu aku bagi atas sebab faktor keturunan campur anak kucing ni. Bukan ape... nanti senang nak masuk sekolah. Hehehe... Kalau nk daftar sekolah agama pon senang... cikgu dia boleh panggil Borhan...

Tapiiii.... toksah ler susah susah... panggil BeBo jek... cute sikit... hehehe.... amacam??? Hensem x gambo? *_*

Sayur oh sayur

Arini sumpah tak tipu.. busy woo kat office cam biasa. Makan pon, opismate ajak kuar rasa cam tiada kecukupan masa... Lalu tengah hari aku hanya tapau dari kedai snooker. (Kedai tu sebelah kedai snooker so, kedai makan tu dipanggil kedai snooker)... Aku cedok lauk ala kadar... Dengan nisbah nasi suku bersama sotong goreng tepung dan taugeh. Aku tambah sket sambal belacan... Pergh.. Ding Dong Bell...

Naik atas, aku makan ala kadar asalkan perut kenyang. Lalu, dengan sepantas kilat seperti halilintar aku meneruskan persembahan di medan otoked. Terbaek. Tiba -tiba.... "telefon berbunyi... ring ring ring... ku angkat ku tanya siapa..."

Sekali... my darling lovely sister... Maka, dengan niat dan kesungguhan sengaja... terbitlah sebuah cerita pada saat itu...

Scene - Orang tebang pokok, dahan-dahan tu diorang letak atas lori....

Papa : (Bawa kereta seperti biasa....)

Mama : (Menyusukan baby seperti biasa...)

Kenderaan dinaiki melepasi scene kejadian

Betty : Papa...papa.... banyaknye sayur.....

Hijau pon kire sayur jugak <--- budak-budak pikir gini kot

I adopt a KITTEN~

I still remember.... I have few batches of white cat family. I love the feeling when i watched all of them running and playing among them at the green yard. It's so beautiful...

Few months ago... I bought a cage because I was planning to adopt a kitten. I was looking around and asking my friends if any of them have kitten that i can adopt. I wish to adopt a white kitten like I used to have when i was 9 years old. A friend of mine inform me that her aunty willing to give me one. But... it turns out to be a sad story... that white kitten was 'missing in action'... Maybe his mom took him away... Hurm...

I spent more than RM200 for all the stuff...

The cage was empty for about 2 month... I feel sad whenever I look at the cage... and there is no kitten in there... Frustrating... But not anymore. Not today... Heeee...

My housemate told me she saw a stray cats... 1 mother with her 5 kittens.... So damn cute... One black, one grey, one orangie, one triple colour (i normally refer this colour as 'kain buruk') and another one is belang-belang. So i took the grey one. Hehehe....

Here it is.... welcome home kitty.....

Errr... Btw, my kitty have no name... Can u help to suggest? I have no idea.... Hurm... too excited maybe.... lalalala... Ape mau kasik nama ni? Is BoO ok? Sebab dia warna kelabo... hehehehe...

And today... I'm proudly announce... ADOPTION SUCCEED!!!!

Happy Birthday My Dear BFF Hanis

17 December 2010

Kamu sudah besar my dear...

Kamu sudah 25 my dear...

Kamu tak boleh nakal-nakal lagi my dear...

Happy birthday my best friend,

Amazing times, we always spend.

Laughter and jokes are common place,

Since we built that solid base.

Special friend that I hold dear,

Always wish to have you near.

We get along, like bread with honey,

A friendship worth, much more than money.

If you stumble, count me there,

Gratitude; no need to declare.

Your thoughts are clear, in my mind,

Understanding we always find.

Happy birthday my best friend,

I’m excited to attend.

This birthday poem, is just for you,

A great big smile is overdue.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

~may all your wish come true and your coming year will be bless by ALLAH with all the happines and beautiful joy around you~

TURN OFF the whole system

Maybe some of you notice... my facebook had been deactivated... my blog also been closed to public. Even now, my writing cannot be pulished to all of you. I'm the only author and the only reader. But, this is just temporary... I promise. Just for temporary....

You wonder why? For the moment... I think I'm lost... Lost in the middle of nowhere... So for the meantime... I'm trying to find the thing that I lost... trying to find myself back... the real me... the life that I loved... the moment that makes me happy....

Life is not just about eat, sleep, breath... It's the combination of heart and soul while doing our routine of life. Easy to say... but not easy to do... Becoz sometimes... we might fall in the black hole.. or.. fall into the hole that we dig ourselves... No need to blame anybody... Mistake is the teacher of life. By mistake, we had been taught to be more mature than before. What does it counts is..... patient.

Don't worry all.... I'll be back.... with the REAL ME!!!

Life is for rent

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

Demam =(

Saya demam. Sob...sob...sob... Actually, dari hari Jumaat dah rasa tak sedap badan. And last Friday, sharp 6pm aku balik. Sabtu dan ahad hanya di rumah. Isnin kerja seperti biasa... badan seperti dah rasa ok. Selasa, aku meeting di Klang sampai petang. Hujan dan panas di site. Masuk office jam 3 petang, terasa sejuk air-cond. Tekak rasa tak selesa, hidung pon rasa dah full tank.

Petang semalam, tepat 6 petang aku balik. Sampai rumah, aku mandi dan terus tido. Around 8 malam housemate kejutkan ajak makan. Dan hari ini, saya MC! Demam. Kepala rasa berat. Tadi pagi, pergi jumpe doktor. Doktor bg ubat yg kuat. Doktor pesan...

"Awak dah 6 hari demam, tanda-tanda denggi takde. Tapi, kalau Jumaat ni tak baik jugak, kene buat blood test ye.."

Errrkkk.... Blood Test??? Blood??? OMG!!! Takut....

So, aku berusaha makan ubat-ubat yang doktor bagi. Rasanya ubat dia bagi tu kuat sangat sampai aku rasa weng.... ding dong bell.... Badan rasa ringan cam terapung. Waaa... Sure dadah byk gile dalam ini ubat. Adeh...

Ok. Masa untuk rehat. Nite all~