Depressed, Sad, Hurt, Stressed!

Enough with all the mess please...
I'm so damn tired!....
pretending i'm fine but i'm burning my self!
I wish i can shout out loud to tell the whole world how hurt it is...
Please take away this pain!
The pain of my life! The pain of hurt!
I wish i could find the light that can lighten up my life.

I thought i've found it...
Yes i am...
But....
I dunno for how long the light will be there!
I just don't know...

I'm crying and crawling with all the pain in my empty heart...
It this the end?
Or just the beginning?
Beginning and end just look same to me!

Now.. I hate of being me!
Being such a mess person with a mess life!

Lunch Nasi Kerabu

Semalam petang... sume kat opes macam malas2 jek nk balik. Tp aku tetap nk balik awal. Argh... x kire... nak tido awal. Hikhikhik... Skali ade opismate aku ni tibe-tibe cakap... eh esok kite makan nasi kerabu nak? WAH... Cadangan yang sangat bagus!

So, aku pon jalan satu opes... amik order... macam waitress da...Dah puas aku tawap satu opes... aku pon kire2 bape banyak nasi kerabu ni... Banyak tu order...

Pagi tadi aku datang opes... ade byk bungkus bungkus atas meja... NASI KERABU!!!

So lauk pilihan arini adelah... Paru + Telur Masin....

Yeay!!!

Mari kite lunch nasi kerabu!

Like A Dream

F : Do you love me?

M : Erm...

F : Yes or No?

M : Yes...


just another script of life... =)

Like a Song

It's broken heart... n here is the song for broken hearted....

Chorus:
I can't forget you when you're gone.
You're like a song
That goes around in my head.
And how I regret
It's been so long.
Oh, what went wrong?
Could it be something I said?
Time, make it go faster,
Or just rewind
To back when im wrapped in your arms

Ahoooh

Dum da di da
Da da da dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum da da di dum
Da di dum dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum la da da di da dum


All afternoon long
It's with me
The same song
You left a light on
Inside me
My love

I can Remember
The way that it felt
To be holding on to you

Da dum da da di dum
Ooh dum di dum

Chorus

Time
Make it go faster
Or just decide
To come back to my happy heart.

Ahooh oh

I'm not Good... I'm Bad...

Arini aku rasa sgt2 moody... life pon cam x happening... n I really miss my vacation with all my BFF in Bali last weekend... It's so much fun n i forgot all the mess that i've gone through. But back to reality... life is not like what we think. Its not good all the time. Shit happens all the time. Here and there. But this is life. I have to be positive, think positive but... nothing goes right... still....

I always wonder... why its too difficult for me... just to have a piece of happiness... until when my life will stuck like this????

I'm Back

Hello bloggers.... sori for not updating my blog for about a week... anyway, I'm back from my Vacation in Bali. Balik2 je disambut dengan kerja2 ofis yg... OMG!... banyaknye... but still i'm doing it slowly... sbb still in mood of vacation... here some picture for uols to enjoy... but dun worry.. i'll update the whole story k...

to all my BFF... i'm having a lot of fun with all of u!!! love uols...

I'm LeAvInG on a jet plane

I,M LEAVING ON A JET PLANE IN A FEW HOURS- I HAVE GOOD NEWS EVERYONE- I'VE GOT MY CAMERA! I'LL BE BACK WITH BUNCHES OF STORIES AND OF COURSE PICTURES OF BALI! PLEASE DON'T MISS ME BLOGGERS- BUT FOR SURE---  I'LL MISS UOLS! XOXO=P

Will i get it or NOT???

Today memang rasa sangat sedih. Sebab my card x bole guna lagi. Dah boleh convert its just take time for the system to refresh everything. So, probably... I can use it today but dunno when. And i've got a call that telling me i can start using it by tomorrow.... =(

Sejujurnya... aku dah jadi tawar hati to do anything... My life always like this... to get the thing i really want akan selalu end up jd macam ni. Terlalu banyak halangan until rasa dah give up dah.

So, persoalaannya... will i get my DSLR tomorrow or not?... is something which is still can't be confirm. Argh... aku sangat-sangat tertekan ni. Mood pon dah hilang. Rasa nak balik and tido jek. Seriously mood BALI dan tak seghairah dulu...

Ya ALLAH... bantulah hambamu ini... Aku mahukan DSLR itu ya ALLAH!!!... Bantulah aku dapatkannya sebelum aku ke BALI... AMIN~~~

So tonite... i plan to cook for myself untuk ilangkan stress dihati. I'm really in a bad mood now... =(

Full of ANGER!!!!

Semalam aku call Maybank to check the status of my credit card. According to them my status dh ok. I'm the principle of my card now. So today, after work i went to Sungei Wang to get my DSLR. Walking here and there... and... i think i'm lost. Where's the shop??? Dah la kaki ni penat. Ngan selambar je aku balun selipar jepun. Ni sume gara-gara g authority seharian. From authority in Bangi to Pandan to Gombak. Urghhh... so tiring.

Because of that aku slamber jek pakai selipar jepun naik tren to go to Sungei Wang. Lantak la org nak ckp aku selekeh ke ape ke.... Kaki aku cam nk tercabut dh pakai high heel ke hulu ke hilir seharian tanpa henti.

Back to searching the shop... time ni dah rasa cam tertekan x jumpe kedai ni... Jalan punye jalan... akhirnye aku jumpe satu kedai... Haaaa!!!.. kedai aritu. Yes... dh jumpe. Aku cube carik chinese guy yang aku kautim aritu. X dek pulak. Yang ade mamat melayu dok tgk smoking depan kedai tu... Erm.. nak tanye sape ni.. Tibe-tibe mamat tu tanye kat aku. Aku cakap la nk cari chinese guy yang aku kautim aritu. Then dia offer diri to assist me. Bole la... janji beli...

Setelah berborak panjang lebar... n setelah di hasut oleh mamat ni... aku pon dh kompem nak angkat bawak balik ni. (psttt... mamat ni leh tahan gak la... i think he's cute... but i don't think the cupid is there to shoot the arrow... hahahaha) So, time nk bayar... aku spt biasa mau swap la kan... Jeng..jeng..jeng... Bende sama yang macam aritu jadik lagi. Now, aku betul-betul marah. Aku terus directly call bank. Tanye status aku. Wanna know what the bank said????

"Maaf cik. Kad cik memang dh ditukat sebagai priciple. Tapi credit limit masih sharing"...

WTF!!!

Aku pon terus hangin kat kedai tu jugak...

"Apsal sharing pulak?? Mcm mana saya nak buat purchasing macam ni??? Dh banyak kali report pon x leh satle lagi ke???!!!!" ... time ni mmg aku rasa nk maki hamun jek bank bongok ni!!!

Dia janji ngan aku nak call back. Selamba aku jawab balik...

"Last time bile i report bank janji nak call balik. Tapi x de call pon. Sampai bile i nak tunggu???"

Aku tertekan....

Aku x kire wahai encik bank yang sangat careless wat keje n menyusahkan pelanggan... Aku tau esok kad aku satle... if not i'll go to bank.. patahkan credit card yang kilat tu n return it back... geram... geram... geram...

Dalam kegeraman teramat tu... perut dah semakin lapar... aku berusaha ni carik subway... sbb dh lapar so nak makan makanan yang ringkas jek... Aku masuk subway kat Sungei Wang tu... makan dengan bersungguh... in 5 minit jek... aku dh abiskan sandwich aku... pergh... time ni rasa amazed ngn diri sendiri... Nampak sangat aku sangat lapar n sangat2 marah...

Sebagai penutup kata.... BONGOK PUNYE BANK!!!!..

-end & gud nite-

Kolam itu untuk Berenang

Semalam aku plan pas keje nak gi swimming. Tp hujan lebat betul. Dengan petir dan guruh2 yang menyambar2. Aku batalkan niat tu. Duduk la kat ofis mengadap computer sampai lebam. So arini aku kembalikan niat tu. Sebab cuaca sangat2 best untuk berenang renang ketepian. Aku pegi ngn Jiha. Tp tunggu Jiha sampai, tak jugak sampai-sampai. Dekat2 kol 9 baru dia muncul. Kompleks renang dh sure tutup. Jd aku lepaskan niat suci murni tu kat kolam umah anis. LALALALALA....

Sib baik club house tu tutup kol 10. Ngan muke x bersalah aku redah jek pakguard tu. Wat muke yakin 200% aku cakap... "saya ada parking kat dalam. Tp kad saya dalam kete lagi satu"... hehehe (ayat ni anis yang ajar).. Pak guard tu pon bagi aku masuk.

Aku parking cantik kat petak kete anis. Sebab makcik dia x de. Out station. Tu yang aku take over kejap. Sesudah aku parking elok2, aku pon dengan hati girang x terhingga terus g pool. OH... AIR!!!!... seronoknye!!!... nk berenang!!!...

Aku pon siap2kan diri nak terjun. AKu raba-raba dalam beg nak cari gogle.... tp x jumpe. ALAMAK!!!.tinggal!... kat dalam luggage.. ala...

So, aku pon gagahkan diri berenang tanpa gogle... tp merepek la jadinye. Aku langgar dinding la... langgar jiha la.. sebab x nmpk. Klorin tu byk sangat... sakit mata bile bukak mata. Terpaksala berenang dlm keadaan separuh buta. sad.....

Tp, disebabkan gogle tu, aku sangat-sangat x puas berenang. Macam budak baru belejar berenang. DAMN... sib baik dh malam. X de orang nampak. huhuhu... Bile dh naik tu terasa satu badan sakit. Tangan rasa cam tegang jek... nak angkat tangat pon sakit... huhuhu

Niat g berenang tu sbb nk warming up berenang di Bali... huhuhu... ok la tu.. Nanti kat kolam Bali leh balas dendam lagi. hehehehe....

K la uols... i nak tido. Satu badan dah sakit2 ni... adeh....

My Sister + Sister IN law r PREGNANT!!!!

2010... I have 2 good news... family akan bertambah2 ahli... my sister is PREGNANT!!! My kakak ipar pon!!! So hopefully dpt baby boy pulak... nk belikan baju baby lelaki... mesti hensem nnt... Dh boring ngn all my gegirl yg byk mulut... cam bertih jagung... hehehe. Nak tau Bety ckp ape bile tau mama dia pregnant???


(My SISTER is pregnant)

Satu malam selepas dh sah pregnant:

Bety: Nanti, bety dapat adik baby eh?
Mama : Haah.. bety suka x?
Bety: Suka... nanti adik baby keluar, adik baby tido atas katil ngn mama. Bety tido bawak ngn papa.

...huhu siannya... dh tau nasib kene tido bawah... :)


Esoknye pulak:

Aku: Bety, nanti bety dapat adik baby dh x boleh manja-manja dah. Bety nak adik boy ke girl?
Bety: Adik boy la. Nanti perut mama buncit... dah buncit bole tekan. Nanti kalau dh tekan boleh kurus.
Aku: Boleh kurus??? APEKAH???

... satu umah terus gelak.. leh pulak dia imagine tekan perut mama dia, nnt mama bole kurus... aduiyai...


(My Sis In Law is pregnant)

Kakak ipar aku dh 4 ke 5 bulan pregnant kot...

Mia: Ibu, bile baby nk keluar?
Ibu : Nnt dia keluar la.. tunggu dh besar.
Mia: Ala... lambat la baby ni nak keluar. Mia boring la... Mia nak adik.
Ibu: kan Mia dah ade adik. Tu adik areyna.
Mia: Ish... adik tu dh lama... Mia nk adik baru!

Bole pulak ade lama baru... macam macam hal la anak-anak sedara aku ni.. huhu. Anyway, mia ni anak along aku. adik mia ni areyna... muke macam BOO... katun dlm monster inc. tu... hehehe

pape pon... i hope 2010 will always bring good new when i pass by. =)